I had an awesome Valentine’s Day! We saw the movie Taken and it was AWESOME, then we went and ate at Bonefish Grill. I had the ahi tuna and broccoli like a good girl 🙂 They gave us a bar of Lindt Chocolate but Mike snatched it up LOL! Then Sunday came. Boy was I moody. I did go and visit my family though which was a plus but I was just feeling fat. No one understands me when I get this way. I know a lot of you on here will know the EXACT feeling. Here I am 120 lbs and feeling like a whale? I seriously have mental issues with weight. Always have and i’m afraid I always will. Before I went to visit my mom she asked me to get her some carrots. When I put them on her counter I saw a “7 day soup diet” which is what she needed the carrots for. It was then that I realized I must have watched my mom and aunt diet when I was younger and it’s embedded into my brain.
Once I hired Tony I thought all of that was changing. I mean I was eating right and becoming a happier person. Now though I know what I CAN look like even if it’s not realistic. I do want to be 115 lbs…that’s where I need to be ALL the time. No more people telling 120 is a healhty weight for me…I feel fat and don’t like it.
I know it’s not an everyday look but dang…why can’t I remember being this thin?
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