Living in the moment
I mentioned awhile back that once I hit 115 I would get my massage that I got for Christmas. Then I read THIS post. Isn’t it weird how sometimes things just click? You should read the entire thing but here’s what got me:
There was never any end date for me. I was always going to be a work in progress because that is life.
I have been 145 lbs, I have been 105 lbs. I actually still feel the same way about my body image at both weights. Instead of using the massage as a reward i’m just going to go ahead and get it because I NEED it. The massage lady doesn’t care how much I weigh. The things that go through my head are insane and I know this.
It will be HARD to live in the moment instead of when I lose 5 lbs i’ll do….or …..I will always be a work in progress myself. I’m sure i’ll do future competitions but I don’t want to “diet” just for those. My eating has changed so much in the last 4 years that this is really my life. I won’t go back to the old eating because I feel better now.
I will go through ups and downs. I have my ENTIRE life. I always joke that i’ve never had a metabolism. That makes it easier for me to eat healthy I think. For now i’m going to enjoy my vacation and live in the moment. This doesn’t mean i’ll be chugging alcohol and eating french fries. I’m sure many of you understand my anxiousness. Being out of my norm. Off a schedule. I do however love it! This is the only time during the year that there is not a schedule for me. My eating isn’t timed, but my workouts still are HA! I do enjoy moving so it’s all good.
Sorry for the rambling but this is my blog and it’s nice to look back and see where my head was at the moment 😀
I love you all!!!!
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